No turning back

MashAllah TabarakAllah, everything is squared away concerning our trip. We just have a few loose ends to tie up but, all the major things are completed. Surprisingly it seems so unreal. I can't believe that the time has come so fast. The more I think about it the more surreal it becomes. I try not to think of the tears that will be shed when we depart from our family. Just mentioning it chokes me up. I'm a very emotional person especially when it comes to family. Leaving behind my mom and 3younger sisters will probably be the hardest thing I've done in my life. Just knowing that I won't be able to visit them when I want or pick up the phone to see how they're doing as often as I like is a hard pill to swallow. I hate to seem ungrateful for the ni'mah Allah has bestowed upon us by all means I'm not, it's just hard to envision leaving behind people that I love and cherish so much. But it can and will be done. InshAllah